Babysitter Worries for Back to Work Time

So, I am supposed to go back to work for December 1st. Luckily it is a salon my friend and I am starting up in her home so I am my own boss for the most part. The problem that I am faced with is that my boyfriend does not do regular 9-5 job everyday. sometimes he works overtime n very little or no notice late into the night. This poses a big problem for me as my babysitter I have secured only works until 5:30 at the latest. Now, not to be nasty towards in laws, BUT... They are retired and they cannot even commit to the two hours after supper two days a week to help me out. Then the Saturday from 10-2. I mean thanks grandma and grampa! It is really too much to ask of your child's grandparents to help you out. I know some people who have parents who are just dying to see their grandchildren. oh no. not these guys. I have no clue why these people cannot help us out. So, now not only do I have to hire someone from 930 am until 5 pm, but now I need to find some poor soul to pick him up from his sitters on Thursday and Friday and bring him back home and feed him and bath him. A complete stranger!!! I mean isn't one complete stranger babysitter enough for one poor little baby. In case you can't tell I am a little begrudged by the lack of support the in laws have shown us. Any comments/suggestions are greatly appreciated.

Oh, Hello. I honestly don't know how much more non-sleep one person can endure. It's getting ridiculous. Last night not only did it take me two hours to get the baby to sleep. But then he woke up at 10 pm, midnight, 2 am, and again at 5:30am...did he go back to sleep after that? That would be a big fat NO! Oh my God. Why won't he sleep? What I am doing that is enabling him to keep waking up? I don't give him bottles in the middle of the night, I don't use cold wipes when or if I change him, I don't know what else to do about this non-sleeping bull. It is wearing thin on my nerves. I start a new business in less than 2 weeks and he is going to be going to babysitter. You know what is sad? On one hand I am going to miss him during the day and the other hand says run, go to work, now, yesterday, leave him with the sitter...I can't stand getting him down for naps or putting him to bed and the hubby isn't much better at, in fact it takes him longer which is just annoying because most the time I have to go in and get in to sleep after he's had enough of it. So it is almost pointless to ask him to do it at all when I just have to go in there in the end anyways. Today is not a cheery day in blog world for me. Today I am tired and wee bit cranky at my life. Today I am going to go back to sleep with Daxon as soon as we eat breakfast. I feel like death I am so tired every frigging day. It has to start getting better, doesn't it..he's 15 months old for God sakes!

over and out.
later.

It's Been a Long Time...

So It has been a while since I have had the time or motivation to blog on here. Sorry. Kinda. Well Anyways, the point is a lot has happened. We own a house now, Daxon can actually sleep in his own little toddler bed from 7 pm until sometimes as late 2am...HUGE improvement. I cut him off nursing when he turned one, Thank God. Now I am working with an older friend of mine that will be renovating her home to accommodate a 2 person hair studio which I am very excited about. It will just be me and her and we love each other so it should be great. Daxon, on the other hand, probably wont find it so great. He will be going to the babysitters for at least 3 days a week. On the up side the girl I found has a daughter his age and she lives only 2 doors down from where I will be working so i feel pretty lucky about that. We have trial runt he babysitter for an hour and half one day while i had to help with some wedding party hair down the road at my friends place. He did well. He started to cry 20 minutes after we left and only lasted for about 5 to 10 minutes and then he was fine. When my boyfriend picked him up he was happily playing with the little girl so all was well in my mind. I hope it all works out and he is happy there. Halloween was a blast he was a puppy and we only did a few houses close to us in the subdivision here so he could have the experience you know. So that's about all that new. There you have it. Things are starting to look up and i couldn't be any more thankful for it.

Cya.

Oh wait. One more thing.

The book that someone ( Joanne, I think) recommended back in early June ( seems like months ago, but whatever!) called "WIPED" by Rebecca Eckler is AWESOME. It's so down to earth. Everyone should read it.

That's all.

Minor Set Back

Oh man, It seems like every time I get going on something or some new plan to progress into, it gets interrupted. The whole "get Dax to sleep in his own bed" plan has been postponed, not only because now he has caught a terrible cold and I have to baby him hardcore when he is sick and cuddle him and love him and well...you get the point. Also, the Bed Bug Bumper pad things we ordered didn't come in yet so, I don't feel safe putting him in that bed anyways! lol. Well, honestly, its not me that really minds so much, the co sleeping thing is easier for me anyway. Its the hubby that has become banished to the futon! Sad, but true.

So not only is the baby sick and the bumper pads haven't arrived but, also we have been trying to look and buy a new house AND we have just put an offer on a really SWEET place out East...*FINGERS CROSSED*. Please GOD, get me out of this Iran-Owned Apt Building...Our Landlord, I think secretly hates us because we made them fix up our place or we were going to the rentalsmen to do it for them. That means we pay rent to them, not our landlord if they don't agree to fix things. Ha ha. SOOOO glad we don't have to deal with all that garbage soon. Daxon will have a yard to play in with dog and we wont have to be so "UNSETTLED" feeling. This is a bit off track. Back to the bed issue.

So, I don't know whether i should just put the whole, wean the baby, getting him to sleep in his bed, getting him to sleep through the night plans on hold until we move because moving will more than likely disrupt all these efforts and set me back to where i will have to start alllllll over again. I only want to do this once, folks. Anyways. I feel like I need a nanny helper to deal with all these things I have to do, how do people deal with all this? Being a mother is really hard sometimes, so many things fall on you, so many responsibilities and choices. It's nice to be this important in someones life ( my baby's life, I mean) but, man...I wouldn't mind someone else stepping up to the plate once in a while to help me out with all these dilemmas.

The New Bed

Oh this is sooo exciting. It is day 2 of "the new bed" trials and so far so good. We have made real progress. He didn't nap in his bed today for his two naps. One was on our bed and the other on my lap in the after noon while i watched some rerun Degrassi. But, hat's not the point. The point is that tonight I laid him down in his bed after breastfeeding and rocking in the rocking chair and he stayed asleep...Yahooo!!! He woke up in an hour when the stupid cat walked by and meowed her shrill meow by him, but a little rocking in the chair and he was back to sleep. Now I don't imagine that he will sleep in it over night but , still this is progress. All these steps are steps toward the BIG picture: Daxon in his OWN room in his OWN bed.

I know this is a short one but I'm too happy about this little bit of goodness.

Giving up the crib

Today we have decided to give up on trying to get Daxon out of our bed and into his crib. Yeah, I know tons of other mothers breastfeed and co-sleep for way longer than 10 months but, I'm not going to be one of them forever. I think it is starting to affect my relationship with hubby negatively. He doesn't feel comfortable in the bed any more and I feel slightly guilty. It is ME after all that started placing him in the place because it was just the easier route over fighting to get him down in his crib. He was one of those babies that every time you moved an ounce when he was asleep, he would wake up. So, naturally when I put him to sleep in his crib he would wake up automatically. I know, I know..."put him to bed when he is drowsy, not asleep". I've heard it all. I just couldn't let him cry and still can't 10 months later. It breaks my heart to have him hyperventilate over simply being put down alone in his crib.

So here we are... co-sleeping and still breast feeding. I've got him down to only breast feeding for his 2 naps during the day and his night time feedings. Which is really an improvement, believe it or not from what we used to do. It was pretty much whenever and wherever.

Tomorrow we are setting up his new little bed in his roome. It's one of those cribs that convert into a little bed when they are old enough. Well, he's not quite old enough but,oh well. I can get him to sleep in my arms and not disturb him by plaing him WAY DOWN DOWN DOWN into his crib. Ah, much easier. Of course now I will have to get one of those mesh guards to put over the side so he doesn't roll out onto the floor in the middle of the night in case he gets all tossy turver on me. I hope this will solve some of the sleep issues going on in my home. Time will only tell.