Oh wait. One more thing.

The book that someone ( Joanne, I think) recommended back in early June ( seems like months ago, but whatever!) called "WIPED" by Rebecca Eckler is AWESOME. It's so down to earth. Everyone should read it.

That's all.

Minor Set Back

Oh man, It seems like every time I get going on something or some new plan to progress into, it gets interrupted. The whole "get Dax to sleep in his own bed" plan has been postponed, not only because now he has caught a terrible cold and I have to baby him hardcore when he is sick and cuddle him and love him and well...you get the point. Also, the Bed Bug Bumper pad things we ordered didn't come in yet so, I don't feel safe putting him in that bed anyways! lol. Well, honestly, its not me that really minds so much, the co sleeping thing is easier for me anyway. Its the hubby that has become banished to the futon! Sad, but true.

So not only is the baby sick and the bumper pads haven't arrived but, also we have been trying to look and buy a new house AND we have just put an offer on a really SWEET place out East...*FINGERS CROSSED*. Please GOD, get me out of this Iran-Owned Apt Building...Our Landlord, I think secretly hates us because we made them fix up our place or we were going to the rentalsmen to do it for them. That means we pay rent to them, not our landlord if they don't agree to fix things. Ha ha. SOOOO glad we don't have to deal with all that garbage soon. Daxon will have a yard to play in with dog and we wont have to be so "UNSETTLED" feeling. This is a bit off track. Back to the bed issue.

So, I don't know whether i should just put the whole, wean the baby, getting him to sleep in his bed, getting him to sleep through the night plans on hold until we move because moving will more than likely disrupt all these efforts and set me back to where i will have to start alllllll over again. I only want to do this once, folks. Anyways. I feel like I need a nanny helper to deal with all these things I have to do, how do people deal with all this? Being a mother is really hard sometimes, so many things fall on you, so many responsibilities and choices. It's nice to be this important in someones life ( my baby's life, I mean) but, man...I wouldn't mind someone else stepping up to the plate once in a while to help me out with all these dilemmas.

The New Bed

Oh this is sooo exciting. It is day 2 of "the new bed" trials and so far so good. We have made real progress. He didn't nap in his bed today for his two naps. One was on our bed and the other on my lap in the after noon while i watched some rerun Degrassi. But, hat's not the point. The point is that tonight I laid him down in his bed after breastfeeding and rocking in the rocking chair and he stayed asleep...Yahooo!!! He woke up in an hour when the stupid cat walked by and meowed her shrill meow by him, but a little rocking in the chair and he was back to sleep. Now I don't imagine that he will sleep in it over night but , still this is progress. All these steps are steps toward the BIG picture: Daxon in his OWN room in his OWN bed.

I know this is a short one but I'm too happy about this little bit of goodness.

Giving up the crib

Today we have decided to give up on trying to get Daxon out of our bed and into his crib. Yeah, I know tons of other mothers breastfeed and co-sleep for way longer than 10 months but, I'm not going to be one of them forever. I think it is starting to affect my relationship with hubby negatively. He doesn't feel comfortable in the bed any more and I feel slightly guilty. It is ME after all that started placing him in the place because it was just the easier route over fighting to get him down in his crib. He was one of those babies that every time you moved an ounce when he was asleep, he would wake up. So, naturally when I put him to sleep in his crib he would wake up automatically. I know, I know..."put him to bed when he is drowsy, not asleep". I've heard it all. I just couldn't let him cry and still can't 10 months later. It breaks my heart to have him hyperventilate over simply being put down alone in his crib.

So here we are... co-sleeping and still breast feeding. I've got him down to only breast feeding for his 2 naps during the day and his night time feedings. Which is really an improvement, believe it or not from what we used to do. It was pretty much whenever and wherever.

Tomorrow we are setting up his new little bed in his roome. It's one of those cribs that convert into a little bed when they are old enough. Well, he's not quite old enough but,oh well. I can get him to sleep in my arms and not disturb him by plaing him WAY DOWN DOWN DOWN into his crib. Ah, much easier. Of course now I will have to get one of those mesh guards to put over the side so he doesn't roll out onto the floor in the middle of the night in case he gets all tossy turver on me. I hope this will solve some of the sleep issues going on in my home. Time will only tell.

Reel Babies Success

Today I went to the Reel Babies at Empire Theatre. I had to take the city bus from Uptown to Parkway Mall to get there. It was out first Public Transit ride since moving here. Daxon didn't seem to mind the bus at all. Of course maybe it was all the Cheerios I fed him. So, Just as I arrive I see the girl (whose name I can't remember and am hoping to catch someone else saying it...) and her 7 month old baby Ethan ( which I just learned today, despite being in the same swim class for weeks now, sad, I know). We ended up sitting together because it was both our 1st time there so we stuck together. The babies liked it each other and even sat in the same seat together for a bit before the toy and cracker stealing started to get out of hand and we separated them. I guess we probably thought it was a bigger deal than the babies did. Oh well. Daxon may have a new little friend if I can get up the nerve to try and get contact info after the last swim meet next week. There are refreshments and stuff after the class , so I imagine everyone will be getting to the chatting and phone numbers and email crap. So all in all it was a pretty good day.

The day just kept getting better...

I arrive home in the afternoon and see a girl and her baby boy sitting on the stairs to the entry way of our apartment building. Turns out she just moved into my 4 unit building and is living right upstairs from us. Her baby is only 1 month younger than Daxon. I told her about the Reel Babies that I had just went to and she said she had never been. Maybe I will invite her next month if I see her around. I feel a little encouraged after today that things may just get easier as time passes...just the all the books I've read say.

THANK GOD IT GETS EASIER.

As for the sleeping situation. Yeah, hopefully after this weekend we would have made some progress in the weening department therefore making the sleeping situation easier to deal with. If anyone reads this has any tips for me for getting babies to sleep with out feeding themselves to sleep, feel free to comment..please. Unless you are going to tell me to let him cry it out, which may work for some people but, it is not my particular style of parenting. I prefer a non-crying baby for most times of the day. Aren't we here to cater to their needs in the first place? Yes. Anyways. Goodnight. It's too late to write anymore.

Ciao

Aquasize Classes...fweew & Other Random Thoughts

Oh where to start? I go to this Aquacize class EVERY Wednesday. It's hard friggin work. You have to lug your baby around ( mine is over 20 pounds already---I know, I know) in the water AND exercise at the same time! I finally feel comfortable talking with the other moms and now next week its over!!! :( Oh well, It was fun while it lasted and I think I finally lost some of that cruddy weight so that's a bonus. Today I mentioned going to the REEL BABIES at Empire Theatre over East Saint John to a couple girls and 1 said she might go tomorrow. Hopefully I see someone I know there. I miss my friend Amy in Fredericton. She would go with me every few weeks to these things. Here, I don't know ANYONE with babies. Hopefully I meet some people soon or poor Daxon will never be socialized.

Is there anything to do with your babies in this city. Any groups to meet people? I know of one playgroup that I am yet to check out. It's on Wentworth Street uptown here somewhere. I am hesitant because I don't know if it is appropriate for Babies or just Toddlers or what so, I procrastinate the phone call to actually find out for sure for another week or two. Stupid,eh. Complain about nothing to do, but I don't actually get out there when there is something to do. Whatever. That's typical me. Bitch about things I can fix but just choose not to.

Anyway, in September Daxon will be 13 months old and we are able to sign up for actual swim classes...not mommy works her ass off and baby gets to hang out and watch from a floating device. ( I'm not bitter about working out, I swear...lol) Hopefully those will provide some little friends for Daxon. I don't even really care at this point if I like the children's/babies mothers. ( Did I really just say that? lol) I just want Daxon to grow up with some babies friends,you know.

I'm sure everything (in time) will work its self out. I just have no patience, whatsoever.

I think I'll cut this short for now. Next time, when I have more time ( like we have have much time to ourselves. Ha!) to rant ( I mean, talk) I would like to discuss the fact that I have to go back to work soon and my baby isn't weaned and he sleeps in our bed and it's a down right disaster of mess to dig myself out of right now I think. Yeah, I know I'm not the only co-sleeper, breastfeeding, mat leave collecting mother out there but...holy crap...how do you put an end to all the bad habits that YOU ( me , alone) created? Yikes. I'm in for a real treat I think. A bad tasting treat. More later on this topic.

Ciao

Best Book EVER

So, I am reading ( and almost done ) this awesome book called "The Girlfriends' Guide to Surviving the First Year of Motherhood" by Vicki Iovine. She's a former Playboy Playmate and she is hilarious in this book. I highly reccomend this book to any struggling first time mother...it makes you feel so normal for all the bad thoughts or stupid questions you have had and never asked anyone. I've quite a few books at this point and this is by far the best one.